it's been a long time since i felt grateful for everything in my life. been sometime since i felt that my mum has tried all her best to give me everything she could and to make my studying life easier. and it just makes me so guilty and bad for not doing my best in school and going out and have fun most of the time. it makes me feel like i'm such an unfillial child and if i'm gonna spend so much money off her i would at least have the decency to get better grades to show her something more worthwhile. =/ it sure makes me strive to want to do better. let's just hope this feeling last for another a mnth or so.
and i really feel like i'm a lucky girl. sometimes i think to myself what have i done to deserve such awesome people in my life and then i'll think that i'm not good in anything and what have i to offer the people that loves me and what can i do to help the people i love. and i just wish that my company and maybe optimism and fun happy side would be enough. :) and even if it's not it just makes me love them even more for still being there for me and with me. hee! and i really am lucky to have a boyfriend who is geeky and perfect in every other way possible. you may not be perfect as an individual but i really do believe that we're perfect together and as a couple. haha! thanks for doing so much for my birthday and be so so awesome being understanding and tolerating. you make me look forward to my birthday and for once i'm really really excited for it. haha! and thanks piggo. for wanting to help me in every way possible. you're just such an amazing friend that i really think i did some really good deed in my past life to have you as my friend in this life. :')
i guess it's just one of those days where you're really thankful of everything and just feel like everything is perfect and you're the luckiest bitch alive. haha! somehow i tend to forget somewhere along the way and i'm glad i found it again. so now just get back in the books. if not for me then for everyone that loves me and wants the best for me.
thanks for always being there and i'm real lucky to have you guys in my life.

Cause I don't wanna lose you now  
I'm looking right at the other half of me  
The vacancy that sat in my heart 
Is a space that now you hold 
Show me how to fight for now
Mirrors - Justin Timberlake