i shld stop deploying the self destruction mode in me.
it's not making things any better.
but i dunno how to stop it.
it seems to turn on automatically.
i think i need a slap or two in the face. =/

some things are really jinx.
you can't speak it out. you just gotta keep it to urself...
even if it kills you. =/
if not wad you thot wouldn't happen will happen.

sometimes i just wish i have a time turner.
cause i'd love to turn back time and tell my past self to not do that-thing-that's-gonna-change-everything.
cause you'll hate urself for doing it. and you would think... why the hell did i do such a thing.
can't i see that it's wrong?!
if only my future self would appear now... and tell me wad i'm going to do wrongly.
then i'll stop doing the wrong thing.
wouldn't it be nice?

damn. i hate regretting things.
it's ok. get over and done with.
it may be a blessing in disguise. =)
or so i hope. it better be.

and right now i smell like somebody dumped a huge packet of icing sugar on me.
=/
i shall bathe. bye! =)

you said we were irreplaceable.
but it felt to me that we alr were.
maybe it's just me.
or maybe it's just my hormones.
but actions speak louder than words.

i'm in a TS mode now.
tt's Taylor Swift.
hahahaha! no thx to Pig.
i love Speak Now. hahaz! it's so cute... and it makes me want to do something crazy.. LOL!
like.. just go to one church wedding of a stranger or something...
live through with all the preaching and god loves you if you love god thingy then when the priest/preacher/idunnowho say "speak now or forever hold your peace" then i just stand up and go... "NOOOOO! dun do it! i'm having ur baby!" HAHAHAHA! or something.
ok.. i'm just imagining... but it's fun. LOL!

things are fine i guess...
the worse are over.. =/
if i'm not wrong...
am i going to jinx the good part if i say it out? =/
let's hope not..
anyway! i think i'm getting sick of facebook...
it's boring.. there's not much to do except stalk my new Meat guy...
other than tt i think it just sucks.
it gives me see things tt i dun like. =/
and make me feel guilty. even though it may or may not be of my concern.
ok... it has nth to do with me... seriously. i shld stop freaking out.
ok.
anyway!
just 5 random things i wanna say now.

1. i wanna go clubbing now. =(
2. i'm glad i told A wad's on my mind. about the orange thingy. hopefully she gets it.
3. seeing the Meat guy makes my heart race. and go giggly and crazy and retarded. BUT DAMN HOT!
4. i'm growing fat. stupid fats just loves me.
5. I MISS WANYI! =(

i think there's some others.. but i can't rmb it halfway typing it.. =/
I NEED TO START STUDYING! =( damnnn... shit. ok.
and i shld really stop Pokering with the guys in class. it's distracting.
but then again if you're sitting where i am sitting it's impossible not to be tempted considering the fact tt three person around you is doing the same thing.
=/
study alison! study!
byeeeee!

drop everything now.
meet me in the pouring rain.
kiss me on the sidewalk, take away the pain. =)

it's slowly eating me alive.
hang on. three more weeks.

i don't get it!
i really don't. not a single bit.
things shouldn't be so complicated!
i mean if you doesn't want to do something. then don't!
nobody's forcing you!
nobody's holding a knife to your throat and force you to do it.
if you don't like it. then reject. say no.
as hard as it is to reject someone... you gotta learn to stick up for urself.
say that, no. i'm not doing it. i hate this stupid shit and i'm not going to do it.
not over my dead body.
you wan to do this shit you get someone else to do. if not do it urself.
it's hard. but not something that cannot be done.
and if you really can't do it. then too bad.
suck it up. admit to it. feel bad. then MOVE THE FUCK ON.
don't fking wallow in ur own stupid misery. cause NEWSFLASH! no one fking cares.
or those who SHOULD care doesn't care.
and if you still can't get over it.
do something about it.
trying to run away from a matter doesn't help. cause the problem would still be there..
just waiting to get bigger.. and bigger.
you sweep it all under the bed... the dust would just accumulate overtime.
and sooner or later you still HAVE TO get tt stupid shit out under the bed.
it's not going to go away until you throw it out of ur room and out of ur life.

this is all getting fking ridiculous.
it all stop making sense. altogether. at once.
i'm not getting any of it.
i don't get why things can't be simple.
just live ur life. stay happy. shit happens. remove the shit.. continue living happily.
it's easy.
it's just whether you want to make it hard or not.
sometimes it's really good to be ignorant.
why think so much? it's not going to help matters.
you'll just kill more limited brain cells.
not that it would help the situation... it just make things even worse.
they shld invent some device to off the thinking mode.
i'm sure they will earn loads of money.
maybe i shld invent it.
hah!
right.

needs to studyyyy.
i know.. just started.. study wad?!
but i need to! but i can't be bothered.. =/
i'm contradicting..
blah.
FUCK.
i need to study.
i hate this.
i hate tt my classmates are crazy and hardcore muggers.
and i hate tt i'm being influenced by them and making me stress.
although my parents would be happy..zzz..
screw this. one chap also good.
feck. but one chap is like 50 pages.
fuckit.
bed.

first day of school!
it's fine i guess..
had almost a nervous breakdown when i'm on my way to school.. =/
scary.. was freaking out..
and thinking whether i can click with the new group of classmates..
oh! and being almost late on the first day is freaky and horrible..
=/
but then things went ok as it goes..
found out i'm gonna be in the same class as karen.
i dunno if it's a good or bad thing.. but the fact tt we're still tgt explains some fate i guess..
anyway!
i got my new eye candy! :D
hahahaha! super cute. and hot. and buff. and handsome.
I LIKE!
fish era is so over.
let's have some meat instead. :D