a thought came to me while i was working today.
more like a realization actually.
it just hit me that i keep looking forward to the end of my intern but then i never thought that it would probably be the start of my working life already.
i mean... i still hope to go to uni obviously... but.. what if i can't get in? then? i'll just have to look for a job. =/
but. what job? i sure as hell wouldn't want to have a job that is 8-5. i don't want to get stuck in the rat's race and then find myself thinking what the hell am i doing it for. i want to look for a job that i like. that i want. that i enjoy and probably wouldn't dread waking up everyday morning and drag myself to work.
i haven't figure out what yet. but probably something that doesn't make me sit behind a desk all day. but at the same time something that allows me to have some time to sit down at a desk and have my own desk too. something that would bring me to places that i have nv been too.
i think i want too much but then i believe there probably would be such a job but just that i havent found it or discovered it yet. or either there is such a job but my qualifications just doesn't allow me to do tt. =/
i just hope for now that i can get into a uni.
get myself back in those books and then worry about it later on. and i really want to try and fulfill dad's wish too. =/
it's alright. things will work out and i'm sure i'll find a way that would satisfy my wants.
worse come to worse. i'll just go back to Panasonic and be a lameass office worker.
at least i still get to see airplanes takeoff and land right in front of my office door.

it's a mad mad world.

like suddenly nth to do!
got so bored with surfing the web and no more ddd or himym or new girl to watch anymore!
no one to talk to or irritate...
went online shopping but it's just got boring and didn't see anything i like.. =/
just walking around aimlessly... feels like life has no meaning.. =/ or maybe i'm just too bored...
huh.
can't wait for work to be overrrrrr! just 11 more weeks! 11 more! omg. get over this week... then december would come! once december come then christmas would be here! YAYYYY! aft christmas then new year! then chinese new year! =) then then then END LIAOOOOO! omg omg omg. okok... so i'll just have to survive another 4 more weeks of nth! then the excitement would begin!
i shall train my work stamina! to not be so tired and like a dead zombie after work! sleep earlier! healthier.. less pimples. ^^
and i realised tt guys in my work place are pretty bitchy. =/
so scary... they're mean. and you dunno when they are really nice to you or if they are sarcastic. =/ why like tt?! tsk! ouh well... it's ok... shall just keep my head down and do my own thing.
hehehe! shall go celebrate and probably party once intern is over! :D
office work is just too mundane.. blehhhh!
sometimes it feels like it's really really never ending! but then at times it feels like.. damn it's gonna be over super fast tt everything would be fine.. but yea... my crazy emotions are just making my head go crazy.. =/
i think the medicine is doing my head in and i dun think i'm making much sense.. =/
better get off here! BYEEEE!

may the force be with meeeeeeeee!

christmas is coming! :D
i love christmas! i love the cold rainy weather where everyone around you is just complaining and whining about the wetness.
c'mon! rain is awesome! think bout it.
when was the last time you just walked in the rain.. not thinking whether your electronics would get wet. not thinking whether you will get scolded by ur parents cause you just walked in the rain and probably fall sick.
i love those hot steamy showers after a cold day and you just stand under the water feeling the heat surrounding you.. ^^

anyway. lots of things happened! from japan trip... to something something. then start of internship. and the whole scrambling and trying to make babe's birthday awesome (which i think i did a pretty good job ^^) and the whole crazy epic night then is just crazy and badass at the same time. gosh.
so tired nowadays. trying not be late for work and trying to keep my eyes open and survive through the day is just so hard!
i feel bad for not meeting love or yi and pig more often. =(
somehow some things kinda changed. everything feels so off now.
just living each day by each day. if internship feels like tt.. then.. wad would a real job feel?! it'll be double the shitness.
=/ my brain isn't functioning now.
i just miss the good old days.
not asking for much.
just gimme how things are two months back.

if it's meant to be then you'll see.