ok! something before i fly off to THAILAND! :D
just feels really weird! i guess i just can't believe that the day i've been waiting for has finally came and i'm really actually going after so much stuff happened!
and i can't help but feel like there would be bad stuff happening! =/
let's hope not.. pray for my safety!
and ok! i'm REALLY EXCITEDDD! OMG! hehe.
ok i don't really have much to say except i'm excited. HAHAHA! LOVE YOU GIRLS AND BYEEE! :D
 the adventure beckons! 

even blogger has a freaking new look.
what's with change? can't things just stay as it is forever once in their entire life?!
why must change be a constant? all that talk that gemini's are adaptive to change and everything. tt's utter bullshit. i hate it. if i had the choice i'll just leave everything as it is the same way as it was.
besides... i may be able to adapt to it but tt doesn't mean that i welcome it or want it.
uni stuff is fucking the whole thing up.
what with the receiving of enlistment letter all around me and the ntu acceptance letters.. it just scares me and really put things into perspective that all these shit is really going to happen and not just something that you're planning for and bring up once in ur 3 years of poly life.
i miss poly life. i miss school. i miss secondary school. i don't want to go into uni. i have never been less prepared for school than i am right now. yes it's still early but i dun think i'm going to change my mind so quickly. and i don't want to move half way across the country.
i love the east. i want to be in the east. maybe i'll just brave the 2 hours long commute back and forth school if i have to.
fuck this shit. all these things are really dampening my mood and excitement for the thailand trip.
it's gonna be a shitty trip and i'm gonna be staying with someone that i can't really stand recently. will never ever get what is going through her mind and it's just tiring to keep trying to put some optimism in the ever so pessimistic brain of hers.
oh damn it. i hate it when the night is just fking with ur brain with all these loaded thoughts.
fffffffffffffffffffu! *flips table!

was looking through tumblr and it suddenly hit me that there are just so much out there that we have not seen or been.
the world is so much more bigger than we ever ever imagined and it is just so full of beauty and the wilderness is just calling out your name to explore it that you don't really know where to start.
you read all of it on the internet but then the internet could only bring you the awesomeness to a small extend. to actually feel it and see it you got t go around and explore it urself to know and see firsthand how magnificent it is.
and it's scary at the same time. cause there's just so much out there that i'm afraid i'm not able to see it and experience all of it in this lifetime.
kinda sad that nature gave us such a beautiful place to be in but we got side tracked and blinded by other things such as money to stop us from seeing the world.
i just want to have the courage and the freedom and ability to go and see around the world and the beauty nature gave us.
even the most simplest thing such as star gazing is not possible here in singapore. guess it's not that easy to just see the world then. =/
it's a pity really. ouh well.
that's life i guess.

pretty eventful period time of my life i would say.
went for an interview for NTU's Linguistics and it just hit me how much we have grown and how scary it is to start all over and then go into another new environment.
and i hate to say this but somehow aft being attached i just feel that going into a whole new environment is a scary feeling and not something that i would look forward to or something that i'm okay with. instead i feel like i'm going into a whole new other world kind of feeling and everything just feels scary not like before.
i dunno what i'm talking about but yea. i'm just not that psyched for a new environment anymore.
BUT MOVING ON!

i've also went to have my first ever driving lesson! :D
heehee! it's kinda fun! and cannot wait to get my driving license actually! hehehe!
looking forward to my next lesson! hope i'll be a pro driver! :D
and i can't wait for thailand trip too! think it'll be interesting.. although things has not been going the way that i wanted but i know that i can make the best out of it and have a good time. =)

i dunno.. i just feel like lots of things have happened these past weeks. and right now i feel like there are lots of love right now and it's just gonna explode with love and happiness or something! hahaha! that is if i dun feel so tired.
i guess sometimes we just got to hit a wall to actually stop and look around us and then to realise what we already have with us than to just keep looking forward and just keep finding for something more.
i dun think i'm making anymore sense so i shall stop.

i'm glad that all of us found us a guy that we love and more importantly who loves us twice as much. =)
got to remind myself that there would always be someone better out there.. but none that would understand and know and tolerate all my nonsense like babe does.
guess sometimes i'll just lose myself into looking for finer things in life that i forget how lucky i am and to actually see that what i have now is already amazing enough.

and i dunno how it could get better than this.