ohmygod. so high right now.
totally didn't study much today. gonna just do my paper with whatever i have with me up in my head.
die. think i'm complacent and tmr's paper gonna be hard!
not like knowing that helps cause i'm still not doing anything!
ouh well... in party mode alr. =/
not goooood. gosh.
maybe putting the tough paper first isn't really a good idea.
or maybe it is.
i dunno.
i'm going crazyyyy! omg.

i miss yi! i miss youm! i miss pig! i miss love!
feels so out of the world during exam period. omg.
and my body clock is so screwed.
not having my 12hrs sleep a day is killing my body.
i think i'm going to have a brain damage.
how?!
omg. i want to shop.
and go to the beach. and go running. cause i'm getting fat even though lots of people tell me that i'm skinnier.
hehehe. i dunno who to believe.
how?! i think i'm going to be anorexic!
GASPPPPP!
quite impossible with the way i eat.
maybe bulimia. hehehe.
ok not funny.
not gonna happen. bulimia is a stupid thing to do.
such a waste of food.
why would anybody do tt?!
just shit it out!
ok. not making much sense. damn....
i think having a tattoo on the shoulder blades are sexy.
but don't worry. i'm not gonna do anything crazy!
omg. maybe i shld follow pig and get a naval piercing. that way i can have some motivation to try and keep my tummy flat!
hehehe. nahhhhh... too scary. and expensive!

can't wait for my papers to be over!
then can go shopping! omg. can't wait for shopping!
but i'm so broke now...
damn. been spending money like it's freeeee!
lalalalalalala. i wanna shop with the girlz!
come to think of it.. i dun think we have really went shopping with ALL four of us right?!
maybe we did.. just tt it's been so long tt i dun even rmb. huh.

and i'm seeing babe almost every single day!
omg. NOT GOOD!
now i'm gonna have withdrawal syndrome if i dun see him daily!
dieee.... i'm so sorry that you need to take so much shit from my family!
omg. feel like just wearing a bullet proof vest and stand in front of you and then shield you from all these shit!
hehehehe! so sweet right? omg.
my family treat you like shit dun care k?!
i treat you super awesome can alr! :D
sorry... =(
you know i love youuuuu!

haiz.. seriously lorh.. thot she would be the one who would understand.
who knows. ouh well.
treat her damn bad now.. omg. cold shouldered her.. =/
make me so guilty! feel bad for treating her like tt! HOW?!
haiz. not good to have a conscience. cause i can't be a real bitch.
omg.
and i'm damn damn hungry now.
but so lazy to take out my retainers and eat. then brush and then put back my retainers.
shall ignore the grumble of my stomach!
yes i can!

i'm going crazy on twitter.
somebody stop meeeee!

infinite.

it's been a really long time since i have this feeling alr.
this feeling of not liking any of my family members...
i rmb having this feeling during secondary school days.
and to get through that period of time it was just the thought of having awesome frens arnd me.
parents are just so controlling and all you want to do is just break out of this hold/hole.
and my sisters are just bitches whose main sole purpose is to make my life living hell by bitching on every single thing that you do or have not done.
gosh... i just really want to get away from this place...
it's just so sickening and somehow even though i've grown up it just doesn't seem like they registered that i have grown up.
do. not. like. to. be. home. now.
=/
been awhile since i thought that my family's fked up.
ouh well.

you know one of those moments where you don't really want to do or think about anything right now?
and all you want is just sit with that someone that you love and just enjoy their company?
it doesn't have to be anywhere. but preferably the beach. or just an empty ground.
with nothing but just the two of you.
it would be really awesome to just lay there and bask under the glory of those twinkling bright stars above you.
small little conversations to know that they are still there enjoying the moment with you.
little whispering touches on your skin to show that they love you.
it may not seem much. but then at that moment you know that it's all you ever wanted in your life.
and nothing ever seems more important at that moment.
it feels like you've been living your life all along just for this moment.
don't you see? it's the littlest things that matter.
life's simple as long as you're in it.

knew the motivation to do well in exams isn't going to last.
so lazy now. feel like just slping all the way through the week.
=/
but then come to think of it. it could probably the last time i'm gonna take my exams in my poly years!
that is if i get into a company that wants me to play arnd for 6 mnths with them. which i highly doubt so.
ouh well. my poly life are gonna be over soon. i'm getting old! soon i gotta start working. how mundane.

and i've been eating constantly the whole day! omg.
constantly looking for food to shove down my throat. i'm getting fat. so lazy to even get my ass out and run.
and i feel like eating more foooooood! ahhhh.
sis bought a pack of Garrett popcorn. and i pretty much just single handedly polish everything off. omg.
die. must be the exam stress.. but i haven even started studyinggggg.
dieeeeee.
if i start studying i'll just live in a mini mart... or a grocery store.

i'm bored. i haven been doing anything for the whole day!
i just slept and eat and sleep more and eat some more.
life's boring. where's those crazy ass days.
i dun even rmb how i usually spend my saturdays.
huh.

lazeeeee...lazeeeeee lazeeeeee...
ok! i'm off to eat crabbbbb! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!
live to eat man. :D

take me to infinity.

yay! :D i've finished PINS report! i'm done!
hehehehe! now i'm gonna rest and let my brain rot for the rest of the week before squeezing all the brain juice out next week to get ready for exams!
i really got to study twice as hard. i've got a point to prove.
it probably wouldn't have matter that much a few days ago.. but right now. it means everything and it would be important for me to prove that my grades are still awesome.
it's alright. i'm sure i can do it. i've done it before i can do it again.
let's just hope there's enough brain cells and juice for me. =/
and that the motivation would last me through two weeks.
please please please. jiayou alison! i can do it! =)

lots of things kinda happened.
love and youm start uni alr. i hardly see youm anymore. dun even hear frm her (ahem!) and yi's gonna start her school soon! thursday is gonna be a sacred day... yi would be free and love would be too!
omg. and school is gonna end soon! =) if i'm crazy enough maybe i'll just travel down to pioneer and look for youm. hehe!

and pig... i know i give you lots of grieve about your decision. you know wad? you shld just ignore me. follow your heart again i guess. shit won't happen again after so many shit has happened right? hahaha!
we shld totally just do wadever we want right now. if you want to eat till you're fat... do it now. if you just want to be lazy and laze... do it now. if you want to go crazy and bungee jump or skydive... do it now. before the world ends next year!
just do wad you want and follow and not think bout anything too much for now. do it. and if the world is really gonna end next year.. then well.. at least you did the things that you wanted to do right? no regrets. and if the world doesn't end and we continue to live... and there are consequences for doing the things that we want to do... then we shall think bout it again when the world doesn't ends right?
hahaha! omg. am i making any sense? i'm just talking rubbish. ouh well.
but wad i'm saying is. do what you want now and think of the consequences later.
i dunno where tt come from.. but yea.
heh.

babe, i love you. i know you said you don't want to think bout it anymore and you don't want to care bout it for the time being... but i just really want to say tt i'm sorry again. i can't change the past but i can still change the future. i'll do wad i can to turn it all arnd. you deserve at least that. when there's a will there's a way right? it's gonna be worth it. although sometimes it feels like it's not worth it... it's still worth it. at least then i can say tt i tried. no regrets. =)
but either way... let's just enjoy wadever we have right now alright? who knows maybe the world end next year and dun need to think of all tt shit alr! hehehe!
if the world dun end next year then we'll just see how lah huh.
LOL!
i really really love you!
you're awesome. ♥
AND I FINISHED PINS ALR! HAHAHAHA! :D
i'm awesome. ^^

love is the strongest power there is.

so so so so tired.
dying alr. pins report is crazyyyyy! my brain isn't functioning anyway.
adding beer/oil/fuel isn't going to help!
everything's just so crazy these days.
on the bright side... all i have left now is just 1 report! ^^
yay me! :D
can't wait for this sem to be really over and done with!
and i really can't think of anything liaoooo...
shall blog again soon! heh.
loveeeee! :D ♥