for Youm.

for Yi.


for Pig.

because i love you.

i guess you could say life is going back to it's usual order.
school's gonna start in two days and then it would be back to the usual sucky timetable and lots of crazy projects and work and studying and not being able to meet up!
not like having holidays make any difference lahhh but still!
anyway! babe's gonna take his driving test sooooon! guess i could sacrifice some meeting up time for him to go for his driving lessons...
sacrifice a big part now to fulfill a much BIGGER AND BETTER part later! hehehe!
you better pass! if not make my sacrifices go for nth! and NO! not wanting to send me home is not a good excuse for you to fail ur driving test! IDC!
haiz.. not looking forward to school starting.. =/
but then at least it'll be somewhat better than holidays.
i dunno. not like me preferring which one would change the fact tt i'm still going to school on monday.
ouh well.

so anyway! i've survived two weeks of work! :D and 5 days of babeless days. ^^
i'm proud of myself. heh.
and i still can't believe that lesbian/butch/whateveryoucallit tries to hit on me.
seriously?! i think i'm too cute for my own good already!
LOL! gosh. i really need some normalcy back in my life before i turn lesbian or bisexual soon.
mannnn...and i swear i feel sexually harrassed! =/
okok. shall get off this topic.. it's too wrong!

i miss loveeeeee! there's no one i could send random text and have late night bitching sessions with! it's alright.. just another week.
i can do it! =) hee!
and PIG. i know i said it alot of times.. but i really love you! know that when everything looks bleak and hopeless and just feels like it's the end of the world..
IT'S NOT OK?! you really really do still have us!
although it's just different and i know that it'll never be the same but still.. there's still US. =)
and wadever the reason it is that still keep you holding on... just try to hang on a little while longer ok? although a large part of me just wants to smack that part of you to stop holding on but i shall be awesome and supportive and ask you to jiayou! =)
i guess at the end of it.. if the outcome is wad you wish it to be then i'll be super happy for you! the fight was worth it! =)
but somehow if fate and life has to be cruel to you and things are not how it would be... at least you can proudly say that you stayed and fight and i'll be really really proud of you. :D

ok... too tired alr.
main point is! I LOVE YOU! and YI and YOUM love you and LOTS of other ppl love you! and dun ever ever forget that alright?
hee! love love! :D

ok. need start project soooooon. damnit.

i miss you even more than i could believed.
and i was prepared to miss you a good deal.

give me something to hold on while you're gone.
c'mon.. don't leave me like this.

finally got to suntan together with WWY! :D
hehehe! next time we're bringing a mat!
everywhere hurts right now. =(
don't ever hit me!
not now. i'll just scream at ur face and get pissed off.

guess we really needed today for all of us.
we've been away from each other for way too long.
singing random songs and just continue singing wadever songs that were playing in a shop and getting weird stares from strangers. =)
hehehehehe! we're weird. but awesome! :D

so many things have happened in such a short span of time.
and somehow it just doesn't seem like we're in each other's lives anymore.
we try our best to keep in contact and catch up and ask wad's going on with each of our lives but it just isn't the same.
i guess it'll never ever be the same. growing up sucks.
and it sucks even more when you know that one of us is going through a tough period and all you can ever do is do nothing and just wait for news.
you can't even be there for each other. that's just... horrible.

and pride is just such a bitch.
it makes you go back and forth with what you need to do and what you want to do.
cause as usual... what you want to do and what you need to do is just the total opposite.
and at the same time what you need to do is just not something that you want to do. EVER.
it'll always be this barrier where you dun want to do what you need to do because pride is in the way.
then you'll just make urself go crazy and thoughts go haywire just because you're not doing what you need to do.
am i making sense?
i think the sun is getting to me.

ahhh... and there's work tmr.
fk work.
i'm literally gonna have a fever.
i'm emitting heat that could be felt one cm away.
haiz. it's only till 10.
i can do this.
who am i kidding? i can't survive that for nuts.
just kill me alr.

i feel like being crazy.
there's this urge to cycle round pasir ris.. or just cycle to go find pig now.
at this not-so-ungodly-hour.
or go on a rollercoaster.
i want those real crazy ones where it loops a million times and drops from high above.
i feel like going to a shop and just sweep every single thing off the rack and just pay it with a credit card i can't pay for.
just cause i'm pretty sure the feeling would be good.
or for the time begin it would feel good.
i want to feel the adrenaline rush again.
that feel of doing something and trying hard not to get caught but there's this high risk of getting caught.
i think i'm crazy.

and there's work.
i'm so lazy to work.
but ok lah. shall go work.
it's easy money. shall shop at the same time! :D
maybe sweep everything off the rack. gonna just kop those tt are nice and reserve it! I DON'T CARE.

i miss love.
i miss pig.
i miss yi.
i miss youm.
i miss husband.
i miss secondary school life.
OHMYGOD. i saw sherlyn today!
hehehehe!

no! i'm not gonna miss you yet.
i have three days to go crazy over that.
i'm stronger than this.
not gonna think bout it. not gonna think bout it. not gonna think bout it.

a quickie before i go start studying! heh.
19th birthday was AWESOMEEEE!
got shitloads of presents! ohmygod. dun need to buy all those necessities for a year alr!
and ohmygod kpop wave concert!
bigbanggggg! *excited!

sorry yi and youm that i'm not able to spend as much time with you guys as i would like! =/
so sorry! but thanks for everything! thanks for coming all the way down to TP and find meeeee! :D
really really love you guys! and thanks pig! for making time to celebrate my birthday for me even though you're so busy! :D <3
i miss you guys already! =( gotta study for termtest.. dun think got time to meet up liao.. =(
and after term test is work! haiz.. hopefully our off days would be the same!

and love! hahaha! a failed attempt to give me a surprise to marina barrage. but still a worthy attempt..
LOL! was the first time going to marina barrage! played sparklessssssss! <3
ate junk food. talk cock. camwhored. took polaroids. hehehe!
it was a pretty awesome night! :D

oh! and of course.. alina. ohmygod. where do i even begin?!
said thanks to her for i dunno how many times alr! and it still doesn't feel like it's enough!
made me 900 hearts and stars. kpop wave concert ticket. Porter wallet. helped babe with all that stuff! got me all those presents from the clique.
gosh. owe her big time! =/

heh. and babe!
gosh. I LOVE THE WATCHHHH! hehehehe! :D
but it ticks superrrrr loud! i can hear it ticking now! and it's like 50cm away from me!
but i still love it! THANK YOU! <3
and saturday was just a freaking awesome day!
thanks so so so much! hehehe! hangover part 2. cable car ride. underwater world. walk on the beach. and dinner! ohmygod. we still haven walk to Henderson's Wave!
heheheh!
thanks a bazillion for making my birthday so freaking AWESOME!
super double duper extremely love you! =)

hahaha! so much for a quickie!
alright! i miss you girlz! =/ must meet up soon alright?
love love!
shall study hard for term tests and prove my mum wrong!
can't believe she dreamt tt i failed.
SERIOUSLY?!
okok.. better go study before i made tt dream come true.
you know i love you! :D