just a quickie on my iphone. hehehe! bear my typos!

somehow i couldn't sleep and as usual the mind wanders to lots of places.

right now i'm in this place in life where i either continue with my studies or enter the adult working world. it's kind of a major life changing for me and i guess either way would change the life that i have now. it's a scary thought. but well. we can't really do anything bout it. tt's life i guess. all we can do is just pray that we are doing the right thing and won't regret our choices in the future. it's been a long time since i said this. but whatever is meant to be will be. somehow i sort of forgot about tt for a period of time. but now. i think i see this more clearly and probably in a new perspective. i may not choose the right path but i guess somehow even though it's the wrobg path as long as i try to make it right and make use of the situation be it bad or good i still can make it become a life that i want to live as and worth living. :)

i feel like i'm enlightened suddenly! hahaha! and one more thing. i realised that i have been trying so hard to get babe to try and get along with my family. i guess i have been trying too hard which is why it's having a negative effect. it may not because of that or maybe it's some other reasons that probably not have a good result. but either way i guess i forced things too much alr. i forgot abt what's meant to happen will happen and what will be, will be. so i shall just let it be and not fret or want so much. i'll just take things as it goes and one step at a time. if it's really meant to be things would work out in the end and if not when time comes i guess it can be proved that love conquers all. :) tt's another thing tt i have forgotten. hahaha! what have i been sticking my head into for the past few mnths? ouh well. just enjoy while it lasts and may true love lasts. ^^ it may or may not have a happy ending but it would still be a beautiful story.

happy one year babe. :)

let's see if we can get through the next two years! haha! hope we do. love you! :)

be it pms or my attitude change or my tolerance level has decrease... fk everything.
having a sister being such a fking pain in the ass bitch.
it's like no one can control her anymore and she know the fact and she just doesn't give a shit about other ppl's feelings at all. she does wad she want and even mum and dad can't do anything bout her.
wants to give her a tight slap to wake her up but i guess no one dares to for god knows what reason.
one day i would really pluck up the courage to do so. fk the fact tt i'm the youngest and with the least say in anything.
just cause she thinks tt she has money she can do anything.
both my sisters doesn't even care a shit about the house and all that do is just keep nagging. they don't even have the slightest right to nag at me.
fking fked up sister. what was i even thinking.. hoping tt she come back..
just three days into her return and she fks everything up alr.
FK YOU.

just feels like everyone wants a piece of me..
i'm not saying tt i'm great or wad...
but it just seem like when everyone is having a bad period they just come to me like i can make magic and make everything better.
and when i say something and nobody hear or heeds wad i say they would just continue complaining that they life sucks and blah blah blah what not.
you don't like somethign that happen in ur life?
FKING DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.
if you don't want to do anything about it dun come and tell me and ask me for advice.
what the fuck you want me to do?!

omg. fking hell. been sometime since i'm this pissed.
fk it.

work was cut short today! ^^
hehehe! last day of work for the year. =)
which means end of internship is just a month away!
oh god. need to look for a job alr! if not got no money to feed myself.
and the new year is here!
new year resolutions is super no use for me.. but still... i shall give myself a few.
nobody can say that i didn't try now!
hehehe!

1) exercise at least once a week.
2) STOP being late.
3) be more responsible.

i think tt's more than i could handle. =/
and i probably break new year resolution numbah TWO in less than 24 hours time.
hee! well i tried. :D

so! planning for my grad trip now! so excited. but still can't decide on where to go!
omg.
can't wait to go on a little adventure.. :D
and babe told me some things today... hehehehe!
totally made my day. no! my whole week! actually make tt my whole month!
HAHAHA! so cute omg.
who knew huh... hee! :D

and it's gonna be our favourite alien's birthday soon! yayyy! FINALLY it's her turn!
waited ONE WHOLE YEAR. LOL.
this year has really changed all of us i would say.
major life change for all of us actually. some good and some bad.
youm started uni. yi got herself a boy and started uni. pig got her heartbroken and became stronger than ever. love started on uni and kinda found herself back amidst the crazy change in surroundings. while i got myself an awesome boy that drives me crazy and brought out the other side of me that i never knew i had and taught me to love in a way that i have never loved.
=)
pig may think that it has been a shitty year.. but i honestly don't think so. this year just taught us so much and brought out the sides that we ALL never knew we had and i think we became someone that is more mature and stronger and know how to protect ourselves.
i would say that this year has been pretty awesome and fulfilling. :D
hee!
ok. shall stop before i start going REAL cheesy.

i love you. and may 2012 be a nice year for all of us!
at least until the world ends. but still.. POSITIVE THINKING ONLY! :D
love love!
and HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

i love you.
i'm sorry that my brain and my bank of vocabulary can't get pass these three words.
but it's all i could do to show how much that means.

so scary and surreal to feel like this.
just wish i wouldn't have that niggling feeling at the back of my mind that something bad would happen but at the same time i couldn't have asked for more and i think i can explode with the love i have in me.
i just want to hug you. till we're one and we have no idea where you start or where i end.
this is so cheesy and so not me but still.

i'm just a hopeful, secretly romantic cynic.

sometimes it sucks to be understanding.
sometimes all i want to do is just yell and scream and be bloody unreasonable that i'm the pain in the ass for everyone.
sometimes i just want to be a prissy bitch.

life has been pretty hectic crazy and tiring.
every single day would be spent with meeting someone. and when i'm not.. i'll be busy catching up on my sleep... which is never the case.
youm's birthday just passed by in a flash.. maybe it's just me.. but it just feels like all of us are just so busy with our own lives. lots of problems that we had gone through or been through or going through but somehow we just doesn't tell each other anymore..
we hardly ever meet each other and when we do we just not say anything so that we doesn't really spoil the mood. and somehow tt just kinda change things between us.. maybe it's just me.. but it seems like the feeling when we're together isn't the same anymore..
guess the difference of our lives just caught up to us. but that's not to say that we don't think or love each other anymore.
all of us just been trying to cope with the changes. but then again... i guess we're just all counting on the fact that we're still gonna be there for each other no matter what happens.
life isn't going to be the same anymore. whether we like it or not.. it's gonna be different. whether i go to a uni or start working.. it'll still not be the same. growing up is a bitch.

constantly feeling so tired and sleep deprived.. when will i ever stop feeling like this! gosh... i need like..energy boosters or something...
sleeping 13 hours straight isn't working either! damnit.
had a pretty lazy but awesome weekend with babe. ^^
practically just sleeping through the weekend awayyyy!
need to get our ass out and moving... rollerblading, swimming, cycling...
healthy lifestyle! hehehehe! really really can't wait for christmas to comeeeee!
omg... not knowing who is gonna get me my christmas present is killing meeeeee! HAHAHAHAHA!
so excited! :D
and love is gonna be away for three weeeeeeks! omg.
i'm gonna just die. one more less sms partner when i'm bored at workkkk! =(
sobs. it's alright. i'll survive! =)
let's get me some more sleep.
love love! :D

a thought came to me while i was working today.
more like a realization actually.
it just hit me that i keep looking forward to the end of my intern but then i never thought that it would probably be the start of my working life already.
i mean... i still hope to go to uni obviously... but.. what if i can't get in? then? i'll just have to look for a job. =/
but. what job? i sure as hell wouldn't want to have a job that is 8-5. i don't want to get stuck in the rat's race and then find myself thinking what the hell am i doing it for. i want to look for a job that i like. that i want. that i enjoy and probably wouldn't dread waking up everyday morning and drag myself to work.
i haven't figure out what yet. but probably something that doesn't make me sit behind a desk all day. but at the same time something that allows me to have some time to sit down at a desk and have my own desk too. something that would bring me to places that i have nv been too.
i think i want too much but then i believe there probably would be such a job but just that i havent found it or discovered it yet. or either there is such a job but my qualifications just doesn't allow me to do tt. =/
i just hope for now that i can get into a uni.
get myself back in those books and then worry about it later on. and i really want to try and fulfill dad's wish too. =/
it's alright. things will work out and i'm sure i'll find a way that would satisfy my wants.
worse come to worse. i'll just go back to Panasonic and be a lameass office worker.
at least i still get to see airplanes takeoff and land right in front of my office door.

it's a mad mad world.