a thought came to me while i was working today.
more like a realization actually.
it just hit me that i keep looking forward to the end of my intern but then i never thought that it would probably be the start of my working life already.
i mean... i still hope to go to uni obviously... but.. what if i can't get in? then? i'll just have to look for a job. =/
but. what job? i sure as hell wouldn't want to have a job that is 8-5. i don't want to get stuck in the rat's race and then find myself thinking what the hell am i doing it for. i want to look for a job that i like. that i want. that i enjoy and probably wouldn't dread waking up everyday morning and drag myself to work.
i haven't figure out what yet. but probably something that doesn't make me sit behind a desk all day. but at the same time something that allows me to have some time to sit down at a desk and have my own desk too. something that would bring me to places that i have nv been too.
i think i want too much but then i believe there probably would be such a job but just that i havent found it or discovered it yet. or either there is such a job but my qualifications just doesn't allow me to do tt. =/
i just hope for now that i can get into a uni.
get myself back in those books and then worry about it later on. and i really want to try and fulfill dad's wish too. =/
it's alright. things will work out and i'm sure i'll find a way that would satisfy my wants.
worse come to worse. i'll just go back to Panasonic and be a lameass office worker.
at least i still get to see airplanes takeoff and land right in front of my office door.

it's a mad mad world.