work was cut short today! ^^
hehehe! last day of work for the year. =)
which means end of internship is just a month away!
oh god. need to look for a job alr! if not got no money to feed myself.
and the new year is here!
new year resolutions is super no use for me.. but still... i shall give myself a few.
nobody can say that i didn't try now!
hehehe!

1) exercise at least once a week.
2) STOP being late.
3) be more responsible.

i think tt's more than i could handle. =/
and i probably break new year resolution numbah TWO in less than 24 hours time.
hee! well i tried. :D

so! planning for my grad trip now! so excited. but still can't decide on where to go!
omg.
can't wait to go on a little adventure.. :D
and babe told me some things today... hehehehe!
totally made my day. no! my whole week! actually make tt my whole month!
HAHAHA! so cute omg.
who knew huh... hee! :D

and it's gonna be our favourite alien's birthday soon! yayyy! FINALLY it's her turn!
waited ONE WHOLE YEAR. LOL.
this year has really changed all of us i would say.
major life change for all of us actually. some good and some bad.
youm started uni. yi got herself a boy and started uni. pig got her heartbroken and became stronger than ever. love started on uni and kinda found herself back amidst the crazy change in surroundings. while i got myself an awesome boy that drives me crazy and brought out the other side of me that i never knew i had and taught me to love in a way that i have never loved.
=)
pig may think that it has been a shitty year.. but i honestly don't think so. this year just taught us so much and brought out the sides that we ALL never knew we had and i think we became someone that is more mature and stronger and know how to protect ourselves.
i would say that this year has been pretty awesome and fulfilling. :D
hee!
ok. shall stop before i start going REAL cheesy.

i love you. and may 2012 be a nice year for all of us!
at least until the world ends. but still.. POSITIVE THINKING ONLY! :D
love love!
and HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

i love you.
i'm sorry that my brain and my bank of vocabulary can't get pass these three words.
but it's all i could do to show how much that means.

so scary and surreal to feel like this.
just wish i wouldn't have that niggling feeling at the back of my mind that something bad would happen but at the same time i couldn't have asked for more and i think i can explode with the love i have in me.
i just want to hug you. till we're one and we have no idea where you start or where i end.
this is so cheesy and so not me but still.

i'm just a hopeful, secretly romantic cynic.

sometimes it sucks to be understanding.
sometimes all i want to do is just yell and scream and be bloody unreasonable that i'm the pain in the ass for everyone.
sometimes i just want to be a prissy bitch.

life has been pretty hectic crazy and tiring.
every single day would be spent with meeting someone. and when i'm not.. i'll be busy catching up on my sleep... which is never the case.
youm's birthday just passed by in a flash.. maybe it's just me.. but it just feels like all of us are just so busy with our own lives. lots of problems that we had gone through or been through or going through but somehow we just doesn't tell each other anymore..
we hardly ever meet each other and when we do we just not say anything so that we doesn't really spoil the mood. and somehow tt just kinda change things between us.. maybe it's just me.. but it seems like the feeling when we're together isn't the same anymore..
guess the difference of our lives just caught up to us. but that's not to say that we don't think or love each other anymore.
all of us just been trying to cope with the changes. but then again... i guess we're just all counting on the fact that we're still gonna be there for each other no matter what happens.
life isn't going to be the same anymore. whether we like it or not.. it's gonna be different. whether i go to a uni or start working.. it'll still not be the same. growing up is a bitch.

constantly feeling so tired and sleep deprived.. when will i ever stop feeling like this! gosh... i need like..energy boosters or something...
sleeping 13 hours straight isn't working either! damnit.
had a pretty lazy but awesome weekend with babe. ^^
practically just sleeping through the weekend awayyyy!
need to get our ass out and moving... rollerblading, swimming, cycling...
healthy lifestyle! hehehehe! really really can't wait for christmas to comeeeee!
omg... not knowing who is gonna get me my christmas present is killing meeeeee! HAHAHAHAHA!
so excited! :D
and love is gonna be away for three weeeeeeks! omg.
i'm gonna just die. one more less sms partner when i'm bored at workkkk! =(
sobs. it's alright. i'll survive! =)
let's get me some more sleep.
love love! :D

a thought came to me while i was working today.
more like a realization actually.
it just hit me that i keep looking forward to the end of my intern but then i never thought that it would probably be the start of my working life already.
i mean... i still hope to go to uni obviously... but.. what if i can't get in? then? i'll just have to look for a job. =/
but. what job? i sure as hell wouldn't want to have a job that is 8-5. i don't want to get stuck in the rat's race and then find myself thinking what the hell am i doing it for. i want to look for a job that i like. that i want. that i enjoy and probably wouldn't dread waking up everyday morning and drag myself to work.
i haven't figure out what yet. but probably something that doesn't make me sit behind a desk all day. but at the same time something that allows me to have some time to sit down at a desk and have my own desk too. something that would bring me to places that i have nv been too.
i think i want too much but then i believe there probably would be such a job but just that i havent found it or discovered it yet. or either there is such a job but my qualifications just doesn't allow me to do tt. =/
i just hope for now that i can get into a uni.
get myself back in those books and then worry about it later on. and i really want to try and fulfill dad's wish too. =/
it's alright. things will work out and i'm sure i'll find a way that would satisfy my wants.
worse come to worse. i'll just go back to Panasonic and be a lameass office worker.
at least i still get to see airplanes takeoff and land right in front of my office door.

it's a mad mad world.

like suddenly nth to do!
got so bored with surfing the web and no more ddd or himym or new girl to watch anymore!
no one to talk to or irritate...
went online shopping but it's just got boring and didn't see anything i like.. =/
just walking around aimlessly... feels like life has no meaning.. =/ or maybe i'm just too bored...
huh.
can't wait for work to be overrrrrr! just 11 more weeks! 11 more! omg. get over this week... then december would come! once december come then christmas would be here! YAYYYY! aft christmas then new year! then chinese new year! =) then then then END LIAOOOOO! omg omg omg. okok... so i'll just have to survive another 4 more weeks of nth! then the excitement would begin!
i shall train my work stamina! to not be so tired and like a dead zombie after work! sleep earlier! healthier.. less pimples. ^^
and i realised tt guys in my work place are pretty bitchy. =/
so scary... they're mean. and you dunno when they are really nice to you or if they are sarcastic. =/ why like tt?! tsk! ouh well... it's ok... shall just keep my head down and do my own thing.
hehehe! shall go celebrate and probably party once intern is over! :D
office work is just too mundane.. blehhhh!
sometimes it feels like it's really really never ending! but then at times it feels like.. damn it's gonna be over super fast tt everything would be fine.. but yea... my crazy emotions are just making my head go crazy.. =/
i think the medicine is doing my head in and i dun think i'm making much sense.. =/
better get off here! BYEEEE!

may the force be with meeeeeeeee!

christmas is coming! :D
i love christmas! i love the cold rainy weather where everyone around you is just complaining and whining about the wetness.
c'mon! rain is awesome! think bout it.
when was the last time you just walked in the rain.. not thinking whether your electronics would get wet. not thinking whether you will get scolded by ur parents cause you just walked in the rain and probably fall sick.
i love those hot steamy showers after a cold day and you just stand under the water feeling the heat surrounding you.. ^^

anyway. lots of things happened! from japan trip... to something something. then start of internship. and the whole scrambling and trying to make babe's birthday awesome (which i think i did a pretty good job ^^) and the whole crazy epic night then is just crazy and badass at the same time. gosh.
so tired nowadays. trying not be late for work and trying to keep my eyes open and survive through the day is just so hard!
i feel bad for not meeting love or yi and pig more often. =(
somehow some things kinda changed. everything feels so off now.
just living each day by each day. if internship feels like tt.. then.. wad would a real job feel?! it'll be double the shitness.
=/ my brain isn't functioning now.
i just miss the good old days.
not asking for much.
just gimme how things are two months back.

if it's meant to be then you'll see.