huh... ok... i'm fine!
i guess. it'll blow over...
things will be fine..
i'm fine...
everything's gonna be fine!
:D
stay positive. and optimistic. =)

school's starting tmr!
=/ i hope i can survive it.
note to self : don't fall aslp. AND don't be late.
time to start my new year's resolution...
may be a wee bit late.. but better late than never right?
jiayou! i can do it! =)

i'm gonna chiong more Gossip Girl before school starts!
ahhhhhhhhhh!
Chuck is freaking awesome... hehehe!
<3

because one day you'll stop what you're doing and ask what's the point of doing all that you have done.
and you'll realise it was all for nothing.

being a bitch is tiring.
it's like you need so much energy to be defensive and think on ur toes to find a retort back.
it's so mentally and physically tiring.
but you can't help it.
sometimes you just slip right into the bitchy mode and you can't control it.
argh. suck ass.
feel so tired right now.
lot of things have changed.
good or bad i have no idea..
and change is coming again.
scary.
i hate changes.
i hate it.
i hate the uncertainties.
how you never know wad's going to happen... and how things will turn out. and how things will be like.
why can't things just stay the same?
at the same place? at the same time? at the same emotions?
i'm whining.
and i miss love and yi and youm so damn much.
things are changing.
i can feel it.
and i don't like it.
not one bit.
it's horrible.
argh! fk this shit.
bye.

i feel like a bitch right now. =/
basically it's not really my fault. i mean.. i din hold a knife to his throat and screw with his feelings purposely.
so it's not my fault wad!
but then i still feel guilty! but i dun think i shld feel guilty wad!
i mean i've given blatant and in-your-face hints that it's impossible...
so i didn't give wrong or false hope wad!
ARGH!! sucks.. IT'S NOT MY FAULT! LET THE GUILT GO AWAY! =/
and in my defense! if i seem too friendly or close or giving false hope... it's because i know how it feels like! I KNOW how shitty it feels if i din reply...
ok... so maybe it's partly my fault... BUT! NOT MY FAULT WAD!
walauuuuu!
damnit.
shld have feelings one then not even a single feel.
shldn't have feelings one jiu got feel. wad's this?!
bloody hell.
now i'm gonna have shitloads of bad karma.
like i din have enough fromthe previous one. damnit.
shit man. i'm so sorry. i really din mean to hurt someone. =/
i'm a bitch.

ANYWAY! fking hell! KPOP CONCERT WAS FKING AWESOME!
like mind-blowing awesomeee! AHHHHHHHH!
damn gooood!
BIG BANG WAS FKING HOT!
omg.... was super duper high and i've never screamed so hard in my entire life before!
it's like freaking legendary seriously!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! DAMN GOOOOOOD!

and some fking sadistic shit asshole is screwing with my hamsters! =/
now i have 4 babies which have not open it's eyes yet WITHOUT a mother.
fuck.
somebody took the mother man... sadistic shit!
it was there before i left lorh!
damnit. now dunno how sia... sonofa....
ARGH! I HOPE TT PERSON HAVE BAD KARMA!

bye!
BIG BANG'S AWESOMEEEEEEEE! :DD

i'm so lazy to blog now...
blehhhhhh......
i'm really lazy.
ok. bye. :D

went clubbing yesterday night.
was pretty awesome. :D
think there are mroe cute guys there than the first time i went there.
heh. hot!
caliente hot.
heehee.
din get really high cause i din drink much.. but it was still good... :D
at first the DJ was super sucky and the music sucks.. but a change of DJ later the party was on!
hahaz! freaking good.
went back to Felicia's house and slept.
so tired.
woke up at 9am and went home.
supposed to go swim and tan but the freaking weather hates us and rained for the entire day.
wth.
crashed at Pig's sofa. :D
and just lazed around for the rest of the day.
LOL!
and ohmygod. my nail polish illuminates under the disco lights!
LIKE DAMN AWESOME AND COOL!
freaking nice. i likeeeee. heh.
anyway. work tmr. ouh well. looking on the bright side at least it's only one day and soon it'll be the weekends alr!
jiayou alison! you can do it!
and i'm so sorry if i din reply msges or stop replying msges halfway.. =/
just really damn sian and lazy to reply. =(
sorry....
and i'm starting to hate bus uncle drivers. =/
stupid bloodsuckers.
heh. speaking of bloodsuckers...
watched Vampire Suck at Pig's today.
LOL! thank god we din buy a movie tix to watch it.
but it was still awesome going gaga over Liam aka Edward body.
heh. awesome... :D
gotta slp! before i zombiefy in the office tmr.
loveeee!
i shall ride this storm out. =)

PIG! hope you get tt Candy Empire job! :D
good luckkkk!

i'm gonna have super lots of bad karma.
=/ i just know it.
i know that wad i did will hurt someone.. but i did it anyway.
i have my reasons. but i dun think my reasons are enough to do it.
but i did it.
damn. i'm screwed up.

i really dun feel like working tmr.
and everything feels very very weird and wrong and weird.. =/
and i need to slp soon...
haiz. life's a bitch.
i'm a bitch.
and if anybody can really outbitch me.. he or she is the bitch of the bitch.
i dun think buying good karma tissue is enough. =/
i need to stop doing bad karma stuff.
someone stop me?
=(

hate that youm yi and love are having their A's...
we can't spend more time. =(
and i dun think i have the energy to go all the way down to look for them anymore.
and tt's kind of sad.
cause all along i've pride myself into being able to go all the way down to look for them even though i'm tired.
but now it's like i'm using the rest of my energy left to drag myself home from work and to spend what's left of the time i have with my family.
i'm even getting lazy to msg.
haiz.
i think working sucks ALL the energy and good alison.
=(