so! i'm gonna shift in to hall tmr. in less than 24 hours. and tonight would be the last night i'll be home. ok. i make it sound like i'm going in to the army or something. but i think it's somewhere near! it is half way across the country after all!
and i haven packed anything at all. tmr's gonna be a mad rush. though i've alr wrote down a list of things to bring. but ouh well... i guess i'm just putting it off as late as possible so tt the fact tt i'm really shifting in is not as real.  ouh well.. some self delusional is good once in a while.

alright. that babe of mine just woke up and made me feel a hell lot better. =) oh i'm so needy i could slap myself. and i think night time is a weakness of mine. it just exposes you. all those vulnerability. and thoughts that consume you. it's the time of the day where ur guard is down and you just feel so alone and you're just craving for another presence to talk to or make some contact with.

ok. get my emotions in control and kick ass. i can do it. =)