dad's making it hard for me.
i have no idea why... he doesn't seem to understand.
stuck in between. wtf.

and right this moment i don't feel wad i'm supposed to feel.
like even if i want it to end it would be just a horrible timing and everything would just sucks even more.
i'm scared that what i think this is IS what it is.
and that's not a good thing.
it would actually be the worst thing.

i'm just so fking tired.
i want everything to just end.
i guess it's partly my fault.
for not being able to spend more time...
shit. it just all comes down to the same problem isn't it?
fuck it.
bye.