so! it's been a long time.
back from thailand and then graduation day was over. kinda sad and now there isn't really much to look forward to anything anymore. =/

thailand has been pretty awesome! just chilling everyday and then having fun and going for adventures in krabi while shop till we all drop and broke in bangkok. hehehe! interesting stuff happen in bangkok! probably never gonna happen again and was pretty shocked when it happened! what were they thinking when they did it?! HAHAHA! but still pretty fun. :D and i guess going overseas would somehow just experience and see each and everyone's other side of them.. as in you're constantly in close contact with each other so as time goes you probably would get irritated with each other or something. kinda argued with babe there but then again i guess it's normal. just feel like after traveling miles away and i'm still being restricted. but then again i know it's also for my own good.. that alina and babe wants to take care of me and if anything were to happen to me they would also be blamed. BUT STILL! we're in thailand. and it's really nth i can do if i'm such a klutz all the time and don't really watch where i'm going. =/ come to think of it.. isn't that how you (babe) is able to jio me? hehehe! ok but you know i still love you and you have done an awesomely tremendous job bringing us around thailand and coordinating the whole thing. that's why i love you so much! ^^ :D

oh! and we may have did crazy things like throwing a water filled condom 10 floors down to the hotel pool.. we MAY. i didn't say we did. heh.

so comes graduation. just like that and three whole years are gone. till now although i still have no idea what to do with my diploma but i still didn't feel like i have chosen the wrong course to enter. many people asked me if i regretted and i can cross my heart and hope to die that i did not regret my choice. not once. =) not only did it let me know babe which is one of the best things that happended to me in poly, but it also gave me three whole years of awesome fun and great friends. ok i wouldn't say tt i would keep in touch with half of my polymates but they have been awesome and we had lots of memories together. not to mention the LTT times. it's the best time EVER in my poly life. :D we have all grown up in the past three years i got to say.
from this

to this

it almost feels like it took magic to happen.
hahahaha! it has really been an awesome journey. not to mention Laos OCP. it was such an eye opener and really a life experience. =) i'm really glad that i had the chance to experience all of that in just three years. i miss it alr.

well... all good things must come to an end i guess. and no matter what happen at least the memories will always live. =) thanks though. to everyone who had been in my life all these years and made my life so awesome. i've never regretted anything that happened in my life before and i would say tt my life has been awesome up till now. :D i love all of you and i just wish that we had more memories tgt. =) hee! cheeeeeesy!
yea alright. this is only the beginning of an end.
WE GOT DIPS ON LIFE! :D

ok! something before i fly off to THAILAND! :D
just feels really weird! i guess i just can't believe that the day i've been waiting for has finally came and i'm really actually going after so much stuff happened!
and i can't help but feel like there would be bad stuff happening! =/
let's hope not.. pray for my safety!
and ok! i'm REALLY EXCITEDDD! OMG! hehe.
ok i don't really have much to say except i'm excited. HAHAHA! LOVE YOU GIRLS AND BYEEE! :D
 the adventure beckons! 

even blogger has a freaking new look.
what's with change? can't things just stay as it is forever once in their entire life?!
why must change be a constant? all that talk that gemini's are adaptive to change and everything. tt's utter bullshit. i hate it. if i had the choice i'll just leave everything as it is the same way as it was.
besides... i may be able to adapt to it but tt doesn't mean that i welcome it or want it.
uni stuff is fucking the whole thing up.
what with the receiving of enlistment letter all around me and the ntu acceptance letters.. it just scares me and really put things into perspective that all these shit is really going to happen and not just something that you're planning for and bring up once in ur 3 years of poly life.
i miss poly life. i miss school. i miss secondary school. i don't want to go into uni. i have never been less prepared for school than i am right now. yes it's still early but i dun think i'm going to change my mind so quickly. and i don't want to move half way across the country.
i love the east. i want to be in the east. maybe i'll just brave the 2 hours long commute back and forth school if i have to.
fuck this shit. all these things are really dampening my mood and excitement for the thailand trip.
it's gonna be a shitty trip and i'm gonna be staying with someone that i can't really stand recently. will never ever get what is going through her mind and it's just tiring to keep trying to put some optimism in the ever so pessimistic brain of hers.
oh damn it. i hate it when the night is just fking with ur brain with all these loaded thoughts.
fffffffffffffffffffu! *flips table!

was looking through tumblr and it suddenly hit me that there are just so much out there that we have not seen or been.
the world is so much more bigger than we ever ever imagined and it is just so full of beauty and the wilderness is just calling out your name to explore it that you don't really know where to start.
you read all of it on the internet but then the internet could only bring you the awesomeness to a small extend. to actually feel it and see it you got t go around and explore it urself to know and see firsthand how magnificent it is.
and it's scary at the same time. cause there's just so much out there that i'm afraid i'm not able to see it and experience all of it in this lifetime.
kinda sad that nature gave us such a beautiful place to be in but we got side tracked and blinded by other things such as money to stop us from seeing the world.
i just want to have the courage and the freedom and ability to go and see around the world and the beauty nature gave us.
even the most simplest thing such as star gazing is not possible here in singapore. guess it's not that easy to just see the world then. =/
it's a pity really. ouh well.
that's life i guess.

pretty eventful period time of my life i would say.
went for an interview for NTU's Linguistics and it just hit me how much we have grown and how scary it is to start all over and then go into another new environment.
and i hate to say this but somehow aft being attached i just feel that going into a whole new environment is a scary feeling and not something that i would look forward to or something that i'm okay with. instead i feel like i'm going into a whole new other world kind of feeling and everything just feels scary not like before.
i dunno what i'm talking about but yea. i'm just not that psyched for a new environment anymore.
BUT MOVING ON!

i've also went to have my first ever driving lesson! :D
heehee! it's kinda fun! and cannot wait to get my driving license actually! hehehe!
looking forward to my next lesson! hope i'll be a pro driver! :D
and i can't wait for thailand trip too! think it'll be interesting.. although things has not been going the way that i wanted but i know that i can make the best out of it and have a good time. =)

i dunno.. i just feel like lots of things have happened these past weeks. and right now i feel like there are lots of love right now and it's just gonna explode with love and happiness or something! hahaha! that is if i dun feel so tired.
i guess sometimes we just got to hit a wall to actually stop and look around us and then to realise what we already have with us than to just keep looking forward and just keep finding for something more.
i dun think i'm making anymore sense so i shall stop.

i'm glad that all of us found us a guy that we love and more importantly who loves us twice as much. =)
got to remind myself that there would always be someone better out there.. but none that would understand and know and tolerate all my nonsense like babe does.
guess sometimes i'll just lose myself into looking for finer things in life that i forget how lucky i am and to actually see that what i have now is already amazing enough.

and i dunno how it could get better than this.

hehe! i'm back from taiwan trip! :D
it was pretty awesome! shld totally upload the loots we got!
bought 4 pairs of shoes. 3 or 4 bags and like 10 plus tops/dresses/shorts.
LOL! doesn't feel enough! and it's only for me! not including my two sissies stash!
we're crazy! dad's awesome for not complaining tt we're buying too many bags and shoes.. hehe! :D

i'm feeling pretty happy now! :D i love it when i'm happy! it makes everything looks pretty and amazing and every little thing seems like chocolate lava cake with ice cream and extra toppings with sprinkles and cherry on top! HEHEHE! :D
sinful much.
speaking of food! omg. craving for taiwan's ji pai NOWWW!
=( been eating so much it's so fat my muffins are out! OMG.
need. to. run. desperately!
shall persevere... try two weeks of intensive trng! :D
yes i can!

and in reply to yi's question on her blog..
hahaha! asked babe bout it and he said tt those pretty awesome down to earth and clever girls doesn't exist! and if they do well.. they're taken alr either tt or they would like those bad boys and friendzone those good guys (eg our awesome boyfriends)! which makes sense and is true. :D but then again.. i don't think such girls exist! NO ONE IS PERFECT. she probably have a bad side tt we never know of. like.. jealousy.. posessive.. who knows? it's a blog my dear girl! and if it's high profile i don't think anyone would just say out their bad or negative sides right? haha!
and i asked babe why wouldn't he think of wanting to get tgt or try their luck with tt perfect or dream girl.. and he said cause you're my pikachu. hehe. this is mushy but i'm just answering yi's question! it's like Ash... there are lots of other good pokemons out there but Ash still chose pikachu mah right?! and you may think tt charmander or some other pokemon is awesome but no matter who it is they still have one weakness right? am i making sense here now? LOL!
so yea! YI! GH choose you got reason one! and i like tt he's making you think maturely! ^^

hee! told you everything looks like chocolate lava cake with ice cream and extra toppings with sprinkles and cherries on top! :D

ok i'm making myself hungry now.
shall drool over my ji pai picture. =(
I CHOOSE YOU! hehehe!

oh oh! and one more thing! and Ash still choose pikachu even after it evolves and become an ugly fug. but hey! tt's love right? :D

just enjoying life right now.
working whenever i can to earn some money so i wouldn't be broke!
feels like i'm gonna spend a lot of money in the coming months! gotta save if i wanna not work aft my thailand trip. =/

working at Hawker Pacific for two weeks! so lazy to work. just feel so weird. i dunno why.. but just weird.. and recently i just feel like i have really very few friends. but then again it's the quality and not the quantity tt counts right? hahaha! but still, somehow recently i just feel like you really can't depend too much on anyone.
ur girlfriends would always be there.. true. but then once one has a boyfriend or a partner it would just change no matter what we say or try to deny.
you would try to meet up and spend time and text and sms but your priority is still ur partner whether you admit it or not. that's not saying tt it's not good but then there would always be this slim chance tt it might not work out with your partner and if it really doesn't and you have unknowingly and subconciously alienating ur girlfriends then you would be left with nothing right?

i dunno... just feeling quite pessimistic and irritated and cranky and every little negative stuff.
i shall go get some sleep and sleep it off.