even blogger has a freaking new look.
what's with change? can't things just stay as it is forever once in their entire life?!
why must change be a constant? all that talk that gemini's are adaptive to change and everything. tt's utter bullshit. i hate it. if i had the choice i'll just leave everything as it is the same way as it was.
besides... i may be able to adapt to it but tt doesn't mean that i welcome it or want it.
uni stuff is fucking the whole thing up.
what with the receiving of enlistment letter all around me and the ntu acceptance letters.. it just scares me and really put things into perspective that all these shit is really going to happen and not just something that you're planning for and bring up once in ur 3 years of poly life.
i miss poly life. i miss school. i miss secondary school. i don't want to go into uni. i have never been less prepared for school than i am right now. yes it's still early but i dun think i'm going to change my mind so quickly. and i don't want to move half way across the country.
i love the east. i want to be in the east. maybe i'll just brave the 2 hours long commute back and forth school if i have to.
fuck this shit. all these things are really dampening my mood and excitement for the thailand trip.
it's gonna be a shitty trip and i'm gonna be staying with someone that i can't really stand recently. will never ever get what is going through her mind and it's just tiring to keep trying to put some optimism in the ever so pessimistic brain of hers.
oh damn it. i hate it when the night is just fking with ur brain with all these loaded thoughts.
fffffffffffffffffffu! *flips table!