"It’s so hard to forget pain, but it’s even harder to remember sweetness. We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace." 

have you ever thought how much we actually know in comparison to what we CAN know in this whole universe?
there's just so so much out there that has not even be discovered and probably those that we have discovered we only know that 1%. and what we already know is only just the surface of the topic there's so much more depth to it than we thought possible. 
part of the reason why i really really want to go stargazing is that then we can sort of put things into perspective of how small and insignificant we are than to the WHOLE universe. 
when you just look up to millions of miles above you that consist of a billion more other things that exists in this whole world. that's gonna make your problems that you think is so big seems so small. probably then you'll be scared that you only know so little things about the whole world. 
lets not talk about how big the UNIVERSE is. just take the internet for example. minus away the porn that's still alot of shit that we have not been to or stumbled upon.
i blame babe's discovery channel and bbc knowledge for all this. all those How Do They Do It. Mega Builders or whatever. come to think of it, it's pretty mindfking actually.
i don't know. it's just some random blabber. 

Singapore is an awesome place. safe secure sheltered bright. probably too safe. too secure too sheltered and WAY too bright. i've always dream of going to just hide somewhere dark and look up the skies. or go to a drive through movie theater. long roads of nothing but just the mountains on the left and the vast oceans at the right. going down a road that leads to another place for you to discover and uncover. 
the world is just too big to uncover in one lifetime. 

then comes love. love is something that exists. but not something that can be hold. not physically anyway. has it ever cross your mind that what you're feeling for someone is conditional love or unconditional love? i once watch a show. a channel 8 show actually (kinda amazed that they actually have good substance) that talks about love and marriage. it said that (in my own words) conditional love is all around and that you don't realise that you're actually giving a conditional love. when you do something for someone, you would expect that someone to be happy and to acknowledge the fact that you did that for him/her right? that's conditional love. cause you expect them to repay that act of love or kindness. you might say but that's the most basic thing! but then again no one asked you to do that particular act of kindness or love. when you do it it's something that you want to do it voluntarily out of your own goodwill. not every one would take it as a goodwill. some people just take it for granted. but then again when you do it you still feel good that you have done it whether the person appreciates it or not right? so if you're willingly doing that act for whatever reason it is. don't expect anything in return. whatever it comes after is a bonus. that is not to say to be stupid and continue doing something for an asshole or something you get my drift but yeah.
i guess the bottomline is that if you do something, do it for yourself. do it because it makes you feel good about urself. not because you want the other person to be happy. of course! if the other person is happy and appreciates it in return then tt's good. but if the other person doesn't then it's fine. don't be sad cause it goes unnoticed. be happy that you're the bigger person. 


i have no idea where did all of that come from. but hey! doesn't hurt to sound intellectual once in a while. haha! :)


come to think of it, everything in life is absurd.
it's just the way you see it.