huhhhh...
i'm feeling kinda shitty.
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hormones is killing meeee! =(
so mood swingy.. =/
howwww? what is this?!
this whole thing is making my brain go haywire...
what have i got myself into?
i feel like some emo shit and i dun even know why.
this is retarded.

anyway. he came over to my house with food at freaking 3am in the morning!
ohmygod. i think i'm a lucky bitch.
who is turning into a fat bitch soon. =/
but i'm not complaining.. yet. :D
heh.

it's still kind of scary actually.
bout everything.
what if i get in too deep?
that's not good.
and they say the star that shines the brightest fades away the fastest right?
and i think i think too much.
this is bad.
bloody hormones.
it just feels like everything is everywhere right now.
and i can't seem to get hold of what's going on...
it's like my hands are full.. but i still want to take more stuff up.
but there's no other way to take any more stuff.
and the only way is to let go some.
but i can't let go of any!
every single one is important to me.
letting go just wasn't an option.
i'll see how it goes.
there must be a way out.
it always is.

and i shld start doing my work!
f word rmb?
FOCUS!
oh who am i kidding?

all along i knew this was wrong,
but it was worth dying for.

making me feel guilty doesn't help apparently.
it'll just make me feel damn guilty at first.. then after i sleep it off.. i'll just get pissed off.
and even though it's of no link and there's nth to be pissed about i'll still get pissed.
guess i just hate feeling guilty. =/

and i have never ever felt so time constraint before.
it seems that 7 days a week is never enough.
it's amazing why pig doesn't slap me before.
i think she does. just that i'm too cute for her to do it.
i know right? :D
hahaha! i'm so sorry man. now i know how you feel.
i could just kill myself right now for putting you such pain.
i was such a bitch! still am lah.. but.. yea. =/

this is retarded...
and i think i'm pms-ing.
like... post.
damn.
suddenly feel so tired of all these bullshit.
ahhh no mood.
fuck. bye.

save your heart for someone tt's worth dying for.
don't give it away.

everyone's like..
wah you're finally all grown up.
not xiaomeimei alr!
... oooookay din know i wasn't growing up until now.
and i'm not a xiaomeimei!
hate it when people call me a xmm.
please. other than my height i'm pretty sure i'm far from being a xmm!
and yes i'm cranky.

damn. and i'm broke.
gonna pay for the Laos trip and losing my swimsuit and i'll need to buy one new one and my online shopping craze again.
need work.
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angbao money doesn't even cover!
ahhhhhhhhhh!

chionging my logbook and project!
it's getting crazyyyyyyy!
3 more weeks.
get it over and done with!
and i can't believe pig actually seriously thot i really don't do my work.
SERIOUSLY?!
hahahahaha! damn.
what impression do you have of me man?!
omg. i still can't believe!
disappointed. =(
hahahahaha!

oh! and did i mention my corby drowned?!
=(
using vivaz nowwww...
feel like i'm betraying corby. =/
i'm so sorry!
i promise to get you fix ok?!
please dun die on me.
you're only less than a year old!

and i feel like i'm living in a bubble right now.
i'm not even following what's happening around me.
enjoy it while it last. =)
before reality kicks me in the face.
damn. i'm so cynical.somebody slap me already!
ok. let's put it this way.
i'm optimistic. not an idiot.
(Y)

better get some logbook done.
3 weeks! 3 weeks!
and there's still report to go.
eff!

my thoughts would echo your name.

it's going to be a bumpy ride.
karma's catching up on me.
damnit.
let's just hope i have enough faith to last through it.
wad doesn't kill us makes us stronger right?
=)

i was enchanted to meet you.

i guess i like where i am right now.
things have been pretty good. =)
and i don't regret any decisions i've made. YET.
but i'll stay optimistic.. =)
let's just hope things would be alright...
one step at a time right?

and dad has been pissing me off recently.
either i have changed or he's really unreasonable ever since preparation of chinese new year started.
i dunno.. i just can't stand it.. the way he just yells at me and scold me for not doing something which has totally of no link and out of nowhere just pisses me off to no end.
i don't usually bitch bout my dad.
and i don't think it's the hormones at work.
this is bad.
but i shall just be a good girl and try not to go out!
but it's just so hard.. =/
ahhhhhh... it's ok! things will be ok!

and i'm just so tired everyday. =/
i'm slping in class every day and tt's not good.
there's a quiz coming and i have not touched a single shit and i don't have time to study at all.
i'm screwed.
maybe i shld just slp now so i'm not tired tmr and just slp late tmr to study.
but i doubt so.
heh.

and i'm finally meeting WWY! :D
ahhhhh! it has been way wayyyy too long. oh gosh.
let's just hope we can hear her singggg! <3

and i shld slp. :D

the way your body feels next to mine.

starting to hate chinese new year.
i hate the preparation.. i don't get why we need to clean every single area of the house till it's sparkling clean..
it's not as if people would go and see if there's dust or wad not...
this is retarded.
and i don't think i would ever ever understand why there's a need to make my bed every morning..
esp since i'm gonna go back and mess it up again in less than 24 hours.
i seriously think making the bed is probably the most retarded chore ever!

and i need to get myself back into shape.
falling sick twice in a mnth is not cool!
need to get back to the falling sick not more than twice a year...

i miss youm and yiiiii alottttt! =(
sexys... we realyl need to fix one day to meet regularly..
this not meeting for idunnohowlongbutseemslikeaneternity is not goooood!
got awesome withdrawal syndrome you know?! =(
we really need to meet! for dinner or for supper in the middle of the night i don't care!

love's gonna come and stay over tonight! :D
hehehehe! at least there's still some awesomeness in my life.. =)

and i do not like tt i'm feeling kind of intimidated!
i shall keep in mind what i normally tell ppl...
come to think of it... i wonder why ppl doesn't smack me in the face when i'm comforting them..
cause hearing what i said before.. i'd want to smack myself in the face and scream at me that it's not that easy...
i don't think i'm making any sense.
ok.. bye! :D