holidays are hereeee! :D
thank god sem 2.1 is over!
it's like the shittiest sem ever. and if any upcoming semester is gonna outbeat this shit sem... it's gonna be like living hell i swear.

this shit sem is like... really bad. but in a way.. it pretty much shows who we really are i guess.
=/
guess the turning point was the AEL freshie camp.
aft tt.. it seems like all hell broke lose.
but then it's not that bad i guess. i got to know someone who somehow one way or the other would be a part of my life no matter how small it is.
and now whenever i see a BnJ ice cream it'll never be just a BnJ ice cream.
in a good way lahh. i guess..
i also had lots of firsts... first date. first stayover. first overnight movie with frens.
lots tt i dun think it's wise to say it here.. hahaz! :D
ANYWAY! i dunno... i guess through everything we know who our true frens are...
things happened for a reason i guess.

there were some regrets too...but then again... i dun think i shld regret it..
i mean... if i were worth fighting for... something shld happened shldn't it?
but i guess i wasn't. not for someone anyway.
there were lots of chances. but it wasn't taken.
so i guess i shldn't cry over someone who doesn't think i'm worth the fight right?
besides! if it is fated... nothing could ever stand in the way.
but seeing as how fated we are.. the chances of anything happening would be zero.
ouh well. i'm sure i'll get over it. =)
although it's taking a longer time than i thought it would.
stupid little thing creeping into my mind without me knowing.
and when i knew how much it meant it was too late.
some things i'll never forget though. but it's ok. cause i wouldn't want to wash away those awesome memories.. =)
i guess i gotta thank that someone for giving me a beautiful period of time. no matter how short it was. =)
thank you. and i'll nv forget you. well.. i hope i can forget those not so great moments.. but thanks for giving me those awesome memories.. =)
not that you'll see this but it's for my benefit! who cares bout you... :D

anyway...through it all i grew up. and i was that girl who doesn't give a shit to anything but me and as long as i'm having fun i wun give anymore shit.
but now.. i'm pretty sure that i've become someone who gave a shit. and think bout things wayyyyy too much. =/ which in a way i guess it's good... and it made me grow up. ALOT.
as much as i would like to go back to that carefree not giving a shit life... i dun think it'll happen.
too much things have happened. i've heard way too much stuff to not give a shit.
i've been through way too much shit to not give any more shit.
and not giving any more shit makes me realise some things..
and realising some things makes me know what matters and what doesn't matters.
and i'm a different person now.
not much. but still different. in a good way i hope.
=)
ohoh! and one last thing...
i'm proud to say that even though there's a bunch of things tt happened.. my believe in fate and "if he is the one he'll be the one" is still intact! :D
and yes. i'm proud of it.

SO! i'm gonna kill this blog.
aft 4 years and 7/8 mnths.
there's not much link. but there's lots of link to me.
but anyway...till never! :D

you know you love me. :D

those who matter doesn't care.
and those who care, doesn't matter.