been a long time since i came online.
either i'm too lazy to on the computer or i'm too busy slping.
these days are getting suckier and suckier.
i have no idea wad the fuck is wrong with me.
one day i'm feeling fine.
the next i'm feeling all fucked up.
and feeling all those feelings tt i'm not supposed to feel and is stupid to feel.
what the fuck IS wrong with me?
gosh.
sometimes i hate myself so much it's a wonder why i din kill myself right there and then.
fuck.
hopefully i'll get myself sorted out as soon as possible.
i dun wan to fucked my prelims and o's up over this stupid mood swings i have.
and pardon my french.
just feeling fucked up.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. how i wish i can really scream out at the top of my lungs.
screw this.
bye.
dun bother coming back here till o's.
it's pretty much dead anyway.
bye guys.

trying to hold on to something worth holding on too.
suddenly felt tt i'm really really better off when i'm not in this world.
sucks to feel so disposable and sooooo second priority.
mayb i just imagined it.
but i dun see anything or any actions tt make me feel the opposite of wad i feel now.
i'm screwed.
or maybe not.

husband, i really want to thank you and everything.
i'm really happy that you're there for me and sorry that i've burden you with whatever i told you.
thanks super lot and i truly deeply love you! =D!

for whatever it takes.