HAPPY BIRTHDAY ARTHUR & AUNTIE LILY!! =D!

i realised a few things about myself...
and i have to admit..i'm shocked about this realisation (is tis even a word?)...
i guess it kind of explains lots of things that i feel...
except how i feel about my sister...
well...now that i know..hopefully i can get myself to change...

and i still feel sad about some things...
i know that once trust is being broken...it will need more time to build it up again...
but i still can't help feeling sad...
ouh well...one day i'll prove to you that the trust is still there...
time builds trust...and i need patience...((:

well...bout my sister..i still don't understand the reason behind the fucking attitude towards me...
and i can't help but wish i have the same courage to face this like i face the problems of my friendship...
i wish i hav enough courage to confront my sister...
to ask her what the fuck is her problem...
i wish i can smoothen things out b/w us like how it did b/w our friendship...

nowadays..i found myself stoning alot...
my mind drifting away from whatever i'm doing...
and i'll just stand/sit/lie there..just staring into space...and stone.
is tt wierd?
is tt a kind of symptom for some wierd mental illness?
nevermind.

and i tink i'm changing skin again..i like this skin..
but i realised that aftr u read my post and you look elsewhere you'll see lots of horizontal lines...
does it happen to you guys?
or does it happen to me only?
nvm...i tink i'm changing to xanga or sumthin...soon..aftr i know how the hell i use xanga or something..
since i'm such a nooooooooooob in stuff like this...
and i feel that there's more privacy and i can shut it down whenever i feel like it...
nvm...dun realli get wad i mean too...

blah....bye!

there's truth in your lies,
doubt in your faith.
what you build you lay to waste
all i've got is what you didn't take.
so i won't be the one...
be the one who leave this..in pieces...
and you will be alone...
alone with all your secrets...and regrets.
Don't Lie.